eve's inner world part 2

This entry below is an extremely violent entry. And I freaking don't care at this present point of time who the bloody hell I will offend.


Sometimes, I am thinking if i am really this fucking irritating. Seems that the whole world of people is not listening to me.


Doing what her/himself like without even considering how their every decision can effect other people. I keep telling myself communication is very important. Why am I always the person who is demanded to listen and try to co-operate with everything when they want me to? Why can't other people do the same to me I need some one to listen and help??


I have been hearing things like: " I'm busy, I'm tired, I'm with someone can't talk ...blah blah blah....." this whole week and I had enough !!!!!!!


Yes, I've EXPLODED...I HAD ENOUGH~!!!!!!! @$$%#@!@!#%%............


There is this something this whole week that is not right- mentality. I don't know why. I do not know if it is just "ME" or the circumstances I am in. Just felt not orientated. Although issues both personal / work are starting to fall in place, but there is this something that is hindering what I want to say or execute.


ARGHH~~~ RAWR~~~~

Updates...16/06-22/06

Once again, lazy blogger like me will only like to do weekly updates, but this time round it will be a short one:-

@Work

Things got alittle sorted out at work by boss. Rules are lay, positions and job scopes. Things are a bit mess up the last few months.* Really keeping my fingers cross for less screwed ups".

But one of the "rules" that we must fulfilled is that there will be no MSN/Skype during office hours. Haiz...this new is like thunder crushing down my head. Strictly speaking, there is no cheap form of communication between dear and me le. Secondly, this is like a daily routine for me le, and now it is gone.... zzzz..

Despite this release of news from boss, I will still log in to it, just that I will only have to use them when there is an urgent message during office hours. No more mass chat, no more talking crap...sounds fair to me. But boss never say can not use it after working hours, and lunchy time....so i can only used it during this period.

@ Play

I went to Sentosa with dear, dear's brother, sis-in law and sister. Overall it was fun but the weather was soo bloody hot and humid that it can roast a chicken. =.=". We went to the Dolpin lagoon, underwater world (it was so long since i last went there), the tiger tower and the Sound of the Sea play.

Overall I would only give it an average rating for the enjoyment. Probably because of the weather, the crowd (arghh..those people from "Ixxxx" and "Txxxxx") . There is so limited attraction but the crowd was just over whelming. Every shuttle bus service is crowded and that is bad. Being a local, I am never a pretty bebe wearing bikins on the beach and to me the only thing that attract so many young "hunks" and "bebes" are the beaches. Till then, I would think that Sentosa itself is really JUST a tourist attraction for foreigners now.

Little Racheal is still so cute as ever but she look a bit distracted at times. Maybe there is just too many things that capture her attention. She fall asleep immediately when the "sound of the sea play" started.

@ Amore

Finally, I decided to step out of my comfort zone and travel to Woodlands Civic Plaza for my workout. I used to flip the phamplets and procrastinate if I should go, espacially during a Sunday. *Lazy to step out*

But today I feel quite bored at home and I don't wish to stay at home facing the computer so i make my decision to gear up for my workout. Surprisingly the permanent instructor for Hi-Lo and New Body class was Clarrise (aka Ray's wife) . This makes me more ready to go and I know that there is intensity in her class. Civic Plaza outlet is a new place for me. I thought it would take me some time figure where are the facilities but I am lucky to make the every right turn to the place I want to go, except for the enterance & exit of the studio.

The studio is huge and the view is fantastic. It is better than Jurong Point~. I could see the HDB flats and the scenery around the Plaza, so relaxing =).

不愧是 Ray 的老婆，the intensity for both her Hi-Lo and New Body is damn high. Her coordinating and energy level makes me think of Jovienne. She is just like her shadow, keep talking and laughing trying to make the whole class have the energy to complete the workout. During her Hi-Lo there is also Kickboxing moves involve. Whao~ =)..... Good for me as I have missed Cheryl's kickboxing class on Sat =p. Can make up abit.

I like her class and it really make my trip to Woodlands worth it. I think I will continue to go for her class if possible. Yeah ~ that will give me more option when it comes to choosing whose class and when I should attend. Have to work harder to keep fit and loss those inches. ~ =x

加油！！！ >.<

我突然想起了从前。

看了一些很久没联络朋友的friendster，blog, 和照片。 想起了一些美好的回忆。。有时候真得很想回到那美好的回忆里。没有现在的烦恼，没有现在的彷徨。。只有开心和笑声。

不是埋怨现在的生活不快乐。我很满意现在的我和我的生活方式， 我也不后悔。

只是突然心血来潮想起以前得点点滴滴。。。

开心的时光是短战的，美丽的回忆是永恒的。我感谢我的“老”朋友为我付出的友谊。。我会一直珍惜。 谢谢“新”朋友的鼓励，你们真的让我感到窝心。。

好啦！ tomorrow is another working day..time for bed.....*yawn~

something to make me happy for now ~~~

ign: xXEvelingxX

anyway that's my maple character. something to make me feel happy ^^. i am at priest at level 78 for now. chionging to the level 80+ soon... jia you ~

eve's inner world part 1

some times I just felt that part of my life sucks~

it has been quite a shitty 2 weeks for me. especially at work, it seems that nothing seems to go on smoothly like what I want it to be. maybe it is just the negative force that i have attracted. i don't know.

human relationship can be quite a tricky issue as we expand. i am starting to feel the tension and the complication now. this kind of expectation has always been there, but maybe i am just not ready to face it, thus I am now having some difficulty handling it. saying and believing is easy, but i have my uncertainty when it comes to putting it into real action.

i hate the feeling of being and feeling negative. i hate the feeling of being loss and helpless. i start to mixed up personal feelings with professionalism at work. people say i am taking things to hard on myself. but i just can't treat things as if it has never happen. it has always been my problem to play emphasis on how other people look at me, but at times i really could not help it.

these few days i have been trying to get myself detached from such situation. talk to dear just now after movie. as usual, his patience & silence to me give me a chance to just wala whatever i want. and i did feel better after my wala-ing to him. in the end he only want me to think of just one sentence. "Are you pushing yourself too hard to try to be what you are?"

frankly speaking, i am lost. tired, confused and stress. a situation to me is no longer a challange to me but it is a pain instead~. i am a human and i do have a limit to embrace such challange, over whelming of it will make me loss confidence in my decision and my ability to think. i am not god !!!!!!!!!!!!

living up to people's expectation is not easy. opportunities don't come by luck all the time. i have it, but i felt that i am lossing it. i really need time to think ...stop her for now....


*feeling: shitty* =.="

My next movie~

I am on the train right now on my way back home. A little bored so decided to try out this online blogger thingy. Hope it turn out well. Keke.. Anyway this will be my next upcoming movie that i wanna watch "kung fu panda". But before that i will be watching narnia this week. Did not manage to catch it due to some miscommuniction. End up watching "indi" with dear yesterday. But never mind la..it was one show that i would wanna catch anyway. Yawn..sleepy still a few more stops away from home..Zzzz..