:: the disillusion ::

"寂寞很吵,我很安静
情绪很多,我很镇定
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒

固执算不算任性的要求?
付出也可能看不到结果

承诺算不算任性的要求?
当爱失去自我失去包容
人总是不能太容易感动
只想要从混乱解脱...."

那些女孩教我的事- 品冠

要不是你让想念猖狂打破天窗
我不会发现枕头上的荒凉
以为你就是故乡
却变成我的流浪
谁的傍晚是谁的天亮
十九八七六十六亿人同时狂欢
五四三二一个人倒数孤单
回忆的拥挤广场
假装你还在身旁
就像你最爱依赖我的肩膀
第一行诗的狂妄
第一首歌的难忘
第一次吻你的唇你的倔强
第一颗流星灿烂
第一个天真愿望
第一个诺言美丽的荒唐
你教我爱的善良
你教我恨的野蛮
你教我忘记该忘伤心太伤
那些你教我的事
让思念更苦更长
只想问想念的想念的想念的你怎么样
爱情是信仰或只能是旅途风光
那女孩带我漫游一次天堂
你教我怎么爱上
却没教怎么遗忘
让我的阳光都变成了泪光

领悟

人在成长的过程中，难免会有挫折，
懂得保护自己，也要懂得爱自己。

生命的乐章是看你自己如何去谱写。

躲避不一定躲得过，面对不一定最难受，
得到不一定能长久，失去不一定不再有，
转身不一定最软弱。

别急着说别无选择，别以为世上只有对于错。
许多事情的答案都不只一个，所以我们永远有路可走。
你能找到理由难过，也一定能找到快乐。。

懂得放心的人找到轻松，懂得遗憾的人找到自由，
懂得关怀的人找到朋友。。。。。

my farewell dinner

the team prepare a farewell dinner for me.....at amirah's grill where my old office is. 回到 Bussorah Street 的感觉很不一样。地方没有变。变得是人和事。

我站在275 Beach Road 前, 想到了两年前, 我的第一份工作. 我每天上班的情景, 午饭时去吃饭的地方和放工后的逼近过的小路. 这一点一滴都在我脑海里浮现. 我站在那里愣了很久.......

也是在这里的我认识了 "他". 隔着电脑每天聊着.....聊着...聊出一段情来. 随着我的离去, 我和他的感情也结束了, 可能这是人家所说的冥冥中只有安排吧

I've don't have alot of pictures from Sunday night..but neverthless I would like to say a big thank you to all of them who turn up and all the gifts that i've received. being part of them, is something that I will not regret..... thanks alot....

tea appreciation @ essential brew

I was hanging out with Doris and Jane at Holland V Essential Brews on Saturday evening. We have plan this after our first meet up when Doris just came back from New Zealand and I would say this is our very first official gathering since 3 years back.

我们穿的比平时美一点，放了一点makeup yesterday and we took alot of crazy pictures cause our Doris girl claims that she did not have a single shot of her taking with us. And Doris being Doris....hahaha....she say if there is no 60 photos today she is not gonna let us home. =p. Well 60 photos are not a problem for the trio, as I realise the 3 of us can be quite a cam whore. >.<". In fact we took a total of 108 pictures by just using mostly my camera phone. Lucky i charge it during the day....*phew. The only turn off part is that my memory card is always full so have to do real time transfer to Jane's handphone for some picture. Other than that, the lighting, ambience and the fragance from the 2 pots of tea...the whole combination is really a great chill out place for us.

Doris was sooo excited that she immediately booked this coming Saturday for another session of chill out. this time she say she is going to be prepared with her Apple Mac book do real time upload of photos to FB. Jane and I was like excited over the chill out again and we even discuss what should we bring like usb lah....blah blah. But one thing for sure, I am gonna be very casual next week. The reason, because Doris say dress pretty ma, so i wore my short dress lo. And thanks to my sister who have been there, she told me after that i need to sit on the floor. =.="

to doris & jane: " thanks for the advice pals, i know by arranging the above, you guys just want me to keep myself occupied as times goes on. your advice in a way or another makes me find back my "lost" self. maybe like what you all say, right from the start of the r/s i already lost who i am giving my priority and relying myself too much in this r/s and him. come to think about it, it can be quite tiring sometimes to compromise to the r/s totally. after 3 years, i also realise the 3 of us become closer and i really can sense that we appreciate each other better.

Doris 你长大了, 成熟了。。but you are still that fun and lovely. Jane is still the same, nothing much have change but that is how i like you. You will always listen to me no matter what. What I realise the most after all these happenings is that I miss out putting in much effort in this friendship. He is right, i should not have let any friendship just slip away. I thought I have understand that, but apparently i have not until now - the true meaning of what he has been trying to tell me.

Nice picture to be uploaded only :-